Remembering

I can’t believe it’s been a year ago today that we gave birth to our second son. He was so tiny at 1 lb 4oz. Ten little fingers, ten little toes, and the cutest little mouth. I think of him often and wonder so many things. Would he have had his father’s eyes? His mommy’s nose? Would he have had blond hair, or brown? I envisioned him playing in the sandbox for hours with his brother, and driving his little toy tractors across his sisters tea parties. We had dreams for him. My mind knows that this was God’s will. I trust that it was meant to be this way even though I may never know the reason. But my heart still hurts. Happy Birthday Buddy.

The family hanging out gifts in rememberance of him. We bought a cowboy hat wind chime and my parents bought a bird house. Thank you for remembering him with us today.

On Your First Anniversary in Heaven

By Don Pheffer

The day you left it became very dark,

The sun refused to shine.

The emptiness surrounded me,

I would surely lose my mind.

The days and weeks that followed,

Were filled with pain and fears.

My every thought about you,

Brought on a flood of tears.

Then, as months began to come and go,

I prayed for some relief.

And God responded lovingly,

To help me through my grief.

Instead of being mad and sad,

With self-pity filled with tears,

I thanked the Lord for allowing us,

To share the short time that we had.

Your birthday arrived today,

not accompanied with sorrow,

Because I know of all the joys,

We'll share with God tomorrow.

The year has been long, but not complete,

You're with God in the heavens above.

So, until I am called to join you,

Happy Birthday, my sweet love.